Different world 

Different place

Trying to find myself

But I’m lost 

I know I don’t act right

A piece of me hides when I’m scared

I change and evolve into a different character

Things happen

I become who I’m not

It’s a fog

A piece of memory I can’t remember

Normal becomes less and less

and I begin to drift along

Fading…

losing…

faith becomes nothing more than a figment

You look at me different

I try to force myself to open up

I’m not ready

I want to believe that everything will be ok

But I know differently

The past becomes a blur

The present becomes reality

Decisions, thoughts

leads into action

mistakes

pain

losing myself into an abyss

wondering if I’ll ever be ok

There is a light at the end of the tunnel

but it’s so far away

and it hurts to walk towards it

staring I begin to follow

The light keeps me going

and it leads me home.

~Chrissy A.